Confession: I am an Adulterous Woman…

Saturday morning, we gathered together in a home in Milford, Ohio, and worshiped God together at our first ever Daughters of Sarah® Boot Camp. My sweet friend, Katy, led us in song as Debbie played the piano in her formal dining room. One of the songs we did was an old hymn, “Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing.”

There’s always that one verse that half lays me on the ground:

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it
Prone to leave the God I love
Here’s my heart, oh, take and seal it
Seal it for Thy courts above

So I wasn’t surprised that the verses He gave me one morning of the retreat were from Hosea:

“And now, here’s what I’m going to do: I’m going to start all over again. I’m taking her back out into the wilderness where we had our first date, and I’ll court her. I’ll give her bouquets of roses. I’ll turn Heartbreak Valley into Acres of Hope. She’ll respond like she did as a young girl, those days when she was fresh out of Egypt.“At that time”—this is GOD ’s Message still— “you’ll address me, ‘Dear husband!’ Never again will you address me, ‘My slave-master!’ I’ll wash your mouth out with soap, get rid of all the dirty false-god names, not so much as a whisper of those names again. At the same time I’ll make a peace treaty between you and wild animals and birds and reptiles, And get rid of all weapons of war. Think of it! Safe from beasts and bullies! And then I’ll marry you for good—forever! I’ll marry you true and proper, in love and tenderness. Yes, I’ll marry you and neither leave you nor let you go. You’ll know me, GOD, for who I really am. (Hosea 2:14-20 MSG)

You might see already where I’m going with this, if you are familiar with Hosea’s story.  The poor guy married a woman who kept wandering off with other men. And he kept taking her back. It’s an analogy of God’s great love for Israel and His great love for us.

As we talked about the many types of women we would minister to, the different ways they were struggling, the plethora of issues we would run into, He reminded us that not only are WE are just like them, and yet ALL of us are precious to Him – we are His bride – He offers Himself through Jesus Christ to us.  The truth of how we are adulterous women, prone to wander, prone to leave the God we love, prone to worship other things instead of Him, both encouraged and motivated us.

The God of the universe, like Hosea, continues to pursue us, regardless.

He knows we are sinners and always will be, but He loves us and will continue to pursue relationship with us.

As for me, I choose to be open, like the girl in Dare 24, to the Word itself being alive. I saw God reveal Himself and His Truth and His dreams for our participants this weekend – and one by one, we just stepped out in faith, willing to do the next thing.

At one point, the doorbell rang.  The husband of one of our team, Katy, had sent her a beautiful bouquet of flowers. He also sent a bouquet of carnations without a card.  The gal that answered the door handed them to me and I knew immediately that they were for all of us. Katy then said, “Not all of us have what I have in my husband, and he wanted to remind you that if you don’t, that God loves you and is your husband.”

THIS was Biblically sound.

And a beautiful Truth for us all.

We encouraged each woman to take a flower with her as she left the retreat – most of them did.

Here’s mine, amidst a few hydrangeas from my garden:

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Something interesting is that there were a few flowers left behind…
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I don’t believe for one second that all of those were left because women were refusing God’s love – we had people leaving at different times and we were all more focused on the hugs and saying “goodbye” to each other as we worked our way through the end of the retreat.  Interestingly enough, some women immediately got their flower on the break right after they arrived, others waited til they left, some needed our help remembering, and some forgot completely about it and we didn’t notice.

I wondered how much this applies to us all on any given day?

When you hear, “God loves you,” as a child, it is a significant, smile-inducing Truth. As the cynicism of the tween, teen, and young adult years creep into some of us, we will often roll our eyes at that Truth. Sometimes we are paying attention to His attempts to reconnect us to His great love – but often we are not. I know I miss many of His overtures for me during an average day.

This morning, however, I didn’t miss one. Part of my morning devotional included this verse from Matthew:

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And while awesome, and True, and fabulous, it only really grabbed my attention that He was speaking very specifically to me, wanting me to pay attention, when I realized that this verse had been shared by my husband as he led our small group last night. It was odd that he chose to go back two chapters and two week’s to remind us of this verse in our study.
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And last night, he asked me how the burden is light and heavy – because sometimes it IS – in ministry. And I answered, “It get’s heavy when I take my focus off of Him, when I stop listening and doing what He wants, and start worrying about all the things (Martha-style) that have to be done. I’m not saying to not prepare and work hard, but rather to be prayed-up, spending time with Him as the most important part of every day, and then asking Him to help us listen all day long.”

In doing that, I begin to see the wonder of Him, experience the wonder of His extravagant love for us – in the midst of the moments of the everyday.

What about you?  Do you know the difference when His yoke is heavy and when it is light? What “coincidences” have you had that could be His overtures of affection and blessing for you?  Dare you to share today…  

So very glad you are on the journey with us!!!
Love to you,
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If you are a guy looking for some ways to love your wife, you might check here. Every woman in the room’s heart skipped a beat when Katy got her flowers! 🙂 For whatever reason, that page has gone viral, and we’re just happy to help. 🙂

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8 thoughts on “Confession: I am an Adulterous Woman…

  1. I am so thankful for your transparency Nina! I have been experiencing similar struggles in a ministry I felt called to and totally relate. It’s as if God gave you those words just for me. I love it when He speaks so personally to us by His Spirit through the testimony of other believers! He is so faithful! And my journey is so similar in that it the ministry hasn’t unfolded the way I envisioned but it is coming none the less. Thanks for being real and being you!

  2. This is what I neede to hear today. I have been feeling burdened and not good enough for even God. Thanks for the reminder that no matter what I will always be good enough for Him.

    • 🙂 YAY! He is so good all the time! 🙂 Good for you, Trixie! 🙂
      Love to you,
      ~Nina

  3. This writint is the “coincidence” that I needed today. I was feeling “spiritually heavy” – like I don’t measure up, am not good enough, am too worldly” etc. and this directed me back to Jesus Christ. HE lifts those burdens from me, and directs me back to HIS peace, love, and simplicity. So, this gave me the focus, and encouragement I needed today to keep going. Thankyou.

    • I am so glad He used this to remind you of Himself and how He sees you! 🙂 KEEP GOING. Yes, yes yes indeed. 🙂

      Love to you,
      ~Nina

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