I opened my blog manager today and the reader had a quote that I’ve mistakenly thought for YEARS was original to myself. It’s something we say in our ministry all the time. We literally have it on a sign in our office.
“Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly until you do it well.“
Apparently Zig Ziglar said that before I did.
So the absolute truth is, I’m once again having a very hard time. You know, one of those swings where I don’t feel cut out to do ministry?
Because the truth is, no matter how hard you work, how much you obey God, you are still interacting with people you can’t change.
And I still don’t do the things I want to do…and do the wrong things instead.
And I keep believing the lie that something I’m doing will have productive (as I define “productive”) results in my relationships. And while people will tell me that I actually do positively impact others, I’m not seeing that right now, and it doesn’t even matter, because that shouldn’t be my motive anyway.
So there’s that…
And I’m feeling alone. So I’m still processing, and I’d apologize for not writing this week, but the truth is that no one really noticed anyway.
I’m not sure whether to take Zig’s quote as encouragement, or a sign that my voice really isn’t necessary given the cacophony of voices. It’s not like there aren’t a bazillion people out there already doing what I have tried to do. I’m seriously not sure if I’m in discipline, getting fired by God, or supposed to be learning something, and what I’m learning is scaring the tar out of me, and I don’t think I’m cut out for it.
Actually, I know I’m not cut out for it.
At any rate, while I’m wallowing around in the midst of this latest weakness, I read Leah’s blog post. It’s about baby poop. Well, sort of. And it’s really funny. So read it here – and laugh with me today. God knows we need more of that in our lives.
And frankly, it’s a dare I NEED to take, whether I want to or not.
Maybe you, too.
And if you think of me, a small prayer our direction would be appreciated.
Love to you,