Ever give all you have (and then some) to something and have it not work out?
Ever be 100% sure that you followed what God asked you to do, did it to the absolute best of your ability, certain you were right in the middle of God’s will, but then not have it end the way you thought it would?
I’m there right now.
After spending nearly 24 hours in tears over it, I’ve decided to give myself the rest of today to mourn the loss of things going the way I thought they would, and then seek what He wants me to do next.
In the early hours of this, I spent a majority of time doubting that I had done the right thing.
I spent even more time wondering how I had misunderstood what I was supposed to do.
And I ate probably too much chocolate.
And I felt like I had failed and let a whole bunch of people down.
And then He reminded me of something.
He reminded me of the many things He had confirmed along the way.
And how I often tell people, “Just because it doesn’t go well doesn’t mean that isn’t the way it was supposed to go… there’s learning in there somewhere…” and I remembered that was true.
And while I still don’t know what the next thing is that I’m supposed to do…
I’m okay with that.
His peace is filling me.
And His Word rings True, because…
Proverbs 19:2 It is not good to have zeal without knowledge, nor to be hasty and miss the way... (there must be something I just don’t know right now and won’t know for a little while…)
Proverbs 19:16 He who obeys instructions guards his life, but he who is contemptuous of his ways will die... (so rather than be angry and contemptuous over how things have gone, I need to remember that I followed instructions, and there are more to come).
Proverbs 19:20 Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise… (so I have asked some very wise friends of mine for prayer and input, and am listening and waiting).
And finally, Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the Lord’s purpose that prevails... (so even though I might think I know what to do and plan out how it will go, I’m under God’s authority, and He will either use me to accomplish His purpose the way He wants it accomplished, in the timing He wants it done in, or He will find someone else to do what He wants the way He wants).
And so in the end, it’s all good.
Set backs are frustrating. But He uses ALL things for good, and just because I can’t SEE at the moment, doesn’t mean He’s not working.
Dare you today to trust His timing, refusing to be afraid, refusing to dwell on the wrong things, refusing to find fault, refusing to doubt.
Glad you are on the journey with me…
Love to you,